I hope that knowing some of us out here are following your story and care x. Emily #TwinklyTuesday, Thank you so much Emily, that means so much to me x x, I don’t know what to say. I am hugging my babies a little tighter today. I finished my red devil treatment (which I had once a fortnight) my first and last were my worst. Thank you for sharing! Reading this I really wanted to comment. People love me. I look ok bald. I hope you have more light than dark days and don’t forget there are so many of us on twitter to give you some words of encouragement when those dark clouds just won’t piss off! Your honesty and pain brought me to tears. But no Neulasta. You’re incredibly brave and giving an honest account will definitely help you and anyone who reads it. You totally understand lady x x, Mim, my love you ARE amazing. Just in case you missed my follow up post, I wanted to update anyone reading this one that I didn’t stay feeling like this for long. Although perhaps it’s a sign chemo is working. Love you lady – thanks so much for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday, Oh thank you beautiful! It’s all wrong. After the shot even taking the Claritin I felt weird. xx. It’s hard to see past the treatment while you’re going through it but thank you for supporting your friend x. Hi Mim, Found your Blog while looking for info on side effects for 2nd treatment of Chemo, was a bit scary to say the least, but you came through at the other end so I suppose I will too. Like you, I quickly learned who my true friends were. I hope my account of red devil chemotherapy treatment has helped you a bit – this horrible phase will pass x. But it’s temporary. Yours will likely be very different and I hope we are all breast cancer survivors x. I have the triple neg breast cancer and I am 60. Early-stage or node-positive breast cancer 2. I resolve to cut some people out of my life when this is all over. Your insight will no doubt be very helpful for those that are going through it! xoxoxo, Oh you’re so lovely thank you lady x x x ha ha my new hair needs a trim :) x x, Oh Mim – it is such an horrendous time and I know exactly how you are feeling. You really are amazing. Good luck for your next one and I wish you and your family all the best. Related: Download my Chemo Appointment Reminder Stickers here. Two to go. In addition, I am in no way affiliated with the Disney brand including Disney Cruise Line and Walt Disney World. I’m angry that my cancer is triple negative – that it’s aggressive and fast-growing. It’s lonely. I avoid taking any anti-nausea pills. Ah you wouldn’t have known, that’s part of the reason I wanted to write about it though, to try and share what chemo is like for some. Now, it was time to fight it. It sounds really hard what you are going through but not because of the way you have written it but because that is the way it is and I think it is great that you have documented it. And YES to laughing – it’s the best healing medicine, it really it :) x x. x x, Thank you for sharing your story. I wanted mine to be one of the positive chemotherapy personal stories too. I have this once a week and they have lowered the dosage by 25% cause of nerve damage to my fingers. On Jan 11th I had my second chemotherapy treatment. I stand outside and feel the sun on my face and shoulders and it makes me happy. A portacath is a small medical appliance inserted near the left clavicle and had a tube that went directly to the superior vena cava. I feel like I understand much more now (though, I suspect it’s the sort of thing you can never really understand fully without going through it). For the hot flashes, I found a cooling towel really comforting such as this one in Australia, this one in the US and this one in the UK. x x. If you don’t mind I really want to ask you a few questions about your experience with taxol and the rest of the treatment after red devil. Sitting in the chair was fine. I have been hospitalized cause I had no white blood cells, but I felt fine. I hope round three is easier on you. I spend all day pulling fallen hair off my clothes and neck. And Anntonette needed hope as she endured the chemo sessions, the worst of which was conducted with an antitumor antibiotic called doxurubicin, also known as the red devil. Thank you for sharing your story. Joy Whitlock will never forget the “red devil.” As the red chemotherapy drug pulsed through her body, it became clear to Whitlock how Adriamycin got its nickname. I survived four rounds of the 'red devil' chemotherapy, Gail Gilbride shares ... known to many as the “red devil” for its awful side-effects. Thinking of my little family gets me through more than anything else x x. Mim, thank you for writing so honestly about your experiences of this illness and the treatment that goes with it. We laugh and joke about how I look like Annie Lennox, then Miley Cyrus, then Sinead O’Connor. For reasons I’m not going to bother you with, I was treated for something with one of the chemo drugs a few years ago & it made me very ill, I kind of extrapolated from that that to actually have chemotherapy with heavy and repeated doses of a full cocktail of those drugs must be pretty horrendous, but even so I would never have guessed at the full extent. I’m hoping all the best for you. I feel guilty for thinking that and I wouldn’t wish AC chemo on my worst enemy. My red devil chemo worst days. This path might be awful, but there are some bloody good people along the way too. There should be many more like you in the world. I’ve had major internal struggles with how much I want to tell you about my chemo experience. But she is strong and am thankful for the information here because I want to be aware of what she is going through and be there for her the best way I can. October 21, 2014 Laura Starner Leave a comment. Despite almost having an anxiety attack when I get there, once the shaver touches my head I feel strangely elated. Hi Lana! Keep going x, Thank you thank you x x I will keep going, I’ll get to the end and I know it will be so worth it x x, Wow….. Newsletter Cancer cells destroyed in just 3 days … AC chemo can be horrific and it’s so difficult to explain it to others. #TwinklyTuesday, Thank you so so much Tracey – I desperately didn’t want it to be a horror story – in the grand scheme of things it’s only a few days but it seems like an eternity at the time x, Your email address will not be published. What can I say other than you are amazing. “There was a period that I couldn’t even be around anybody.” Anntonette dreaded each chemo … Names in the description of the chemo. But this was actually three years ago for me and almost a memory :) and once it leaves your system you’re going to be a brand new woman! Isolated from cultures of Streptomyces peucetius var. I never thought this day would come! And all of this starts again. You learn a lot going through something like this and you will be a stronger person for it, although I know it doesn’t seem like that now. Oh yeah and the hair has been falling out for the last 3 days, feel a bit like Donald Trump at the moment, but am trying to get in touch with my hairdresser for the “Shave”. I’m so sorry your ‘friends’ haven’t contacted you. I do have to worry about Diarrhea issues. I’m going to win :) x x. Bless you Mim… Wish I was there in person to give you the biggest hug xx You have been very much in my thoughts along with my Auntie. Lots of love xx, Thank you so so much – I really hesitated but I’m so glad I shared. Tears for everyone going through this and awe for the strength and courage you all have. I think if the cold cap had been fitted better I would have kept more hair, but COVID prevented that. Truly. I feel like a ghost in my own home, detached from everything. What tears me up are all the younger women. On one hand, I want to be completely honest, with full disclosure. I had my 3rd round this Monday and I already feel so much stronger in dealing with it – hoping that continues! I hope to get stronger and more positive again as each day goes by. I wish you much luck and many days ! Thank you so much for this. Thank you for opening my eyes. xxxx, Oh thank you Rachel, I was so worried it might be scary for others x x. I’m so happy that you decided to give a full account of your chemotherapy treatment. Also, deb sounds amazing! The Indigestion I have been able to manage with a health store product called ” Gut Relief” from Nutralife, you can only get it a a health food store, it’s pricey at $45 but is well worth the price. Not right. It starts on about Day 3, like that foggy-headed hungover feeling and gets worse each day. Unfortunately, for some at least, that is the tip of the iceberg. It’s so much better than the distress of it falling out. As I’ve said before, my. It’s all individual though. ;)). Not necessarily for me. Sending lots of love and good luck for your next treatment, Mim. As the treatments go on by the 4th … I feel like a ghost in my own home, detached from everything. No it wasn’t for me. Related: I Thought My Body Was Broken (So I Fixed That). The days after chemo were hellish. I feel sad that my friends aren’t calling, that some friends haven’t called at all, haven’t even acknowledged that I had cancer. It’s so so easy to fall into negativity with this and even to depression, so easy. Not that I especially wanted to lose my hair, I just felt like that was going to happen anyway. Thank you for sharing xx Ps Debs does sound amazing and lovely! Metastaticdisease Adriamycin is sometimes combined with Cytoxan (cyclophosphamide) and/or 5-fluorouracilto make a cocktail of breast-cancer-fighting chemotherapy drugs. You are so brave for sharing this – I knew chemo was something horrendous but I didn’t really know, you know? My sisters and I and my mom vowed to cut certain people off wen she’s better. Then I found your post. PS I bet you make a beautiful George Dawes ???? Your email address will not be published. It was nice that I had 21 days between each round so that I could recover and then have a couple weeks of normalcy. Keep going lady, you’re doing wonderfully, and I always thought you would look great with a shaved head (I’m not kidding). I got to meet two lovely mums who are undergoing chemo too and met a cute little baby boy from one of them. It looks like a bruised lump in my chest plus it hurts when touched or they hang the IV. From what I can tell, it’s pretty much a given on my form of chemo, AC chemotherapy, that you’ll lose your hair. Please do not feel guilty for something you didn’t know x x x. I read this last night and it made me cry, I’m still thinking about it this morning. First set of Chemo was an intense cocktail chemotherapy, Adriamycin and Cytoxan known as the “Red Devil” that was very potent but for the most part I did very well – nausea controlled by meds, tingling and numbness in hands, some upset stomach, back pain, lost of appetite and food tasting bland and red blood cell count decreasing. It’s so difficult to articulate it sometimes but it means a lot to have your support x, Oh Mim, I read your post and I could hear the pain in your words, the sadness and the anger. Thankyou for sharing. It doesn’t feel like it now but I know it will end. We’ve been constantly been getting told that “breast cancer is so easy And common, don’t even worry it’s practically like a common cold” And family members called us out for overplaying the situation and being so dramatic. Steroids can give you energy and help you feel better. Can I get a collective WOOOOOO-HOOOOOOO?!! The second half of the process was a treatment affectionately known as the “red devil” among cancer bloggers. I am really not sure what to say here. The Day I Met Red Devil Chemo. Honestly you are so freaking brave!!! For guys, the reason has to do with the way chemo drugs target … I would hate to add to the complications of chemotherapy horror stories already online. Thankfully, I just finished my 4th and final treatment of Red Devil. Just 8 days after officially being diagnosed with breast cancer, I received my first dose of chemotherapy. And yes, I found taxol much easier than red devil. I also increase my water intake to 80 ozs per day on day before, day of, and 2-3 days after red devil. I knew it was awful but I had no idea about using a separate toilet and the potential for early menopause and fingernails falling off. Email me if you ever want a chat – I hope your treatment is going really well :) x. Hi Mim, from friends I have heard how lousy chemo can make you feel and to think that anyone has to go through that in order to get well again makes me shudder, but I have no doubt that it’s better than the alternative. 3rd and 4th days. I’ll stop poisoning my body to the point that some things no longer function. Chemo is notorious for hitting harder on the third day, in part because of medications given to counter chemo side effects. I cannot begin to express how excited I am to get this last treatment over with. On Day 2, my husband administers the Neulasta injection in my tummy. Losing weight would mean the dosage of chemo I’m given it too high for my system to take. That it would be easier. They make me feel crappy. It’s an awful thing to go through but you will get there and look back when it is over; more positive (esp if you have cut the people out who haven’t called) and be an inspiration to so many others. For me, days 4 and 5 after AC are the worst. Oh thank you Megan :) Deb is so so wonderful – my whole Oncology team is :) x x. Mim. This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. It’s dark and ugly and unfair but you are standing tall and doing everything you can to get through the other side. My immune system has plummeted and I’m so at risk of infection that I can’t go out. The chemo nurse administered the red devil by hand very slowly and then I would be infused with other drugs both before and after the red devil. I have developed something of a spastic colon. I don’t understand, but I’d like to try, so I think you should keep sharing as much as you want to. The newer "double-dose" therapy uses a combination of high dose Adriamycin and Cytoxan in combination. Kym and Roger XXXOOO, Thank you so much to both of you, that’s just so lovely of you to think of me – I AM on the downhill run! A few excerpts from my personal journal during the journey with AC chemo (aka RED DEVIL)… Red Devil #2. and helping me, not harming me. the first chemotherapy treatment was so tough, I Thought My Body Was Broken (So I Fixed That), My Triple Negative Breast Cancer Diagnosis and Treatment – Chemo and Radiation, One year after Breast Cancer diagnosis – life after breast cancer, 5 Thoughtful Gift Ideas for Cancer Patients. I have my fourth dose tomorrow of the second round. 2 down for you – keep strong. On Day 6 my mouth and throat is really sore and Deb recommends I get Difflam mouthwash which helps to numb it. Sending all the love and strength I possibly can xxxx. Are you doing red devil chemo? I also take a claritin 2 days before chemo and continue daily for a full week. I found a cooling towel really comforting such as this one in Australia, this one in the US and this one in the UK. I am praying that round three is going better than rounds 1 and 2. I appreciate your brutal honesty. Your attitude is fantastic and I really enjoy your blog. Again, like pregnancy. I feel insanely guilty I didn’t realise just how harrowing chemo is when a University friend was going through it. Every day is an endless cycle of blowing my nose, washing my hands, coughing, washing my hands, going to the toilet, washing my hands and so on. Luckily, I am still working. “One of my drugs was called the ‘red devil’ because of the awful things it does to you,” Rowley says. Five minutes later I’d changed my mind and told her I was going to continue with it. x, Thank you so much! Basically, Deb is amazing and so positive and will support me through all of my decisions – everyone needs a Deb :). Thank you for sharing your experience. It’s all over the floor everywhere and Mr M kindly vacuums it away so I don’t have to see it. It’s weird how sometimes you don’t feel like talking to people, but you don’t want to be abandoned either. I actually managed to sleep through some of the session, which was quite nice for me and I imagine quite boring for Mr M who was at my side the entire time. x x PS move to Aus! Like I had a good excuse not to use it next time. Can u believe it? I would drop things. The worst of the treatments is the day after. Sending you so much love, light and many more big hugs. So far that has to be the one of the only real benefits of chemotherapy. We are so sorry that you have to endure such horrible treatment, but you are on the downhill run now. It was like looking in the mirror. I hope you have finished all your treatments & are well on the way to recovery. I told one of my amazing chemo nurses, Deb (not her real name), that I was thinking of not doing it and embracing the baldness and she said that was a brilliant idea and was so encouraging. Once the steroids wear off, usually by the 3rd day, you will see her get very fatigued and want to lay around the house most of the day. What happens after chemotherapy is finished? I believe that knowledge is power and although you don’t want to scare future patients, knowing what to expect for me, would be helpful. I start Googling hair growth after chemo. But I like you survived the 4 AC and started taxol which is easier (it couldn’t be any worse). x. I had no idea what it entailed fully for you physically and mentally. I wish you all the best with the treatment, fingers crossed the second set is not as bad. I cry for the women who haven’t started or finished their families that are going through this. Does chemotherapy cure cancer? Oh thank you lovely Lou x x x hee hee I’ll have to share my new ‘look’ soon! I can only hope that your next two sessions will be no worse than that, and that it does manage to kick the cancers arse. I’m grateful that I didn’t have to have a mastectomy. Whitlock would try to eat, but it would come right back up. Please let me know if there is a better way to communicate with you. I have to say that my first 2 treatments with the Adriamycin were the worst! Thanks for the Blog. I’m angry that people think my ‘all clear’ result after surgery means we can all move on. I put my faith in the high chemotherapy success rate. The hair is still a-falling. You have helped so many people by doing so. Basically, it’s different for everyone. “It's the one that causes you to lose your hair, but it’s so much worse than that. I really didn’t have a problem with this until I began Xeloda, an oral chemo I took for 28 weeks. I don’t look too bad really. On January 12, 2009, the port was in place and we were ready to go. I have to use my own bathroom as the chemo drugs come out through my urine and I cannot risk my family coming into contact with them. Learn how your comment data is processed. I dread Day 7 as I remember how down I felt during the first cycle and true to form, the black cloud descends. He just found out last week that the cancer is back (last week is also when we ran back in to each other after not seeing each other in over 10 years). It’s truly horrific. Your story has educated me and made me realize all the things I have been blessed with and am so thankful for. What is so interesting is how different everyone’s story is. Lots of love to you and a big hug for your husband too, sounds like he is a marvel. Your story made us feel like we have a friend on our side. But still not fun. Doxil is apparently known as the “red devil” and is ... 2018 will be my last round of chemo!! My red devil chemo worst days. On January 12, 2009, the port was in place and we were ready to go. Thank you so much Laura for your lovely words :) You’re so right about no pain, no gain – it will totally be worth it! Everything I want to say to you feels like a cliche, or feels empty because I have not walked in your shoes so cannot truly understand. Sending all my love and best wishes to you xx, Thank you lovely, that is so so nice of you x x x. I feel so ignorant having read this. On the other hand, I’m nervous about potentially scaring others who might end up undergoing AC chemo themselves. x x, What a beautifully written post Mim. I’m sorry you went through that. Oh thank you Claire x x please know I am feeling MUCH better since writing the post, it was very therapeutic and the worst of my side effects have definitely gone for this cycle :) Bring on the next one! So shes on chemo for the rest of her life. Hoping the next two go easier on you. So far worst has been the dry mouth like you have eaten a handful of flour, but that has now passed. All you can do is take one day at a time They told me the second round of chemo is smoother and for me it is. There were times when she didn't have the energy to leave her bed. I want to take this opportunity to tell you a little bit more about AC chemo and what does chemo do. Ha yes, it was awesome to not have to shave everything :) Wishing you the absolute BEST of luck Jessica with the rest of your chemo and surgery – love to you x x. I found your blog looking for information on these Red Devil chemo treatments. The pain in my hands due to the layers of skin peeling back is a story for another day. It probably sounds stupid, but I really wish we lived closer so I could be there for you (and that fits with the lovely comment you left me today, so I’m on my way, ok! I am sitting here with tears rolling down my face. I knew cancer wouldn't be pretty. All I can say is, I got through and I don’t think I was anywhere near as strong as you – so without a doubt you can. I want to be brave but I want to be honest too. You’re doing a brave and brilliant thing by removing some of the mystery around cancer treatment. This is such a brilliantly written post. They want me to to be here and I want to be here with them. I dread Day 7 as I remember how down I felt during the first cycle and true to form, the black cloud descends. Thank you. Thankfully we have two bathrooms or things could get very difficult. How many days after chemo do you feel better does vary for everyone. She started chemo whilst pregnant, then had her baby early and has now recommenced chemo. Your increadable not only for being able to face that, but for being able to put it into words that tell us the honest truth of chemo without making it sound like a horror story or a pity party. Nothing more I can say except you know that I do understand what you’re going through xo, So so true! If you want to gain an insight into what I’m truly going through each cycle, please stay. I’m definitely going to beat it :) x x, Mim, Luckily I feel OK most of the times. x, I don’t know how you manage to write such beautiful words about something so truly harrowing. Researchers reveal how altering the structure of chromatin in cancer cells could make them vulnerable to chemotherapy and other treatments. There is a high chemo success rate. Doxorubicin (Adriamycin®) is a cytotoxic chemotherapy drug and an antitumor antibiotic in the anthracycline group. I’m half way through the worst of it and I have 6 days to make the most of feeling well, to play with my children, to laugh with my husband and to catch up on all of the calls, texts and emails. I start the ever-green chemo next Thursday. On Days 10-12 I experience hot flashes constantly which leads me to believe I’m in early menopause. But I made it. This can drain the pocket book, calendar, and be exhausting. I did not start feeling better until the 5 or 6th day after chemo. As you’ve said, knowledge is power, and any one going into this will find this post immensely helpful. I know what it’s like to get the “red devil” in the veins. I think talking about it is a very positive thing as my mum couldn’t do this and struggles to communicate her feelings about it with us. It’s a very hard thing to go through but you will definitely come out the others side :) wishing you the very best for the rest of your treatment x. I only found your blog last week and I really wish I had found it sooner. I hope that your next round of chemo are a little easier on you. One is a type of immunotherapy and the last is a steroid, which has shown to have anticancer effects. If you’re wondering what does chemo feel like or is chemotherapy painful, this is purely my experience on red devil chemo. Enjoy these next days with your family in the sunshine, and the biggest of well wishes for the next lot of treatment. I had to have 4 dose-dense treatments of AC. x. I’m really sorry you have to go through all this repeatedly, Mim, it sounds like such a lot of suffering. I had no idea just how awful and exhausting chemo is. Deb said that was brilliant and again was encouraging and gave me all the benefits of doing that too. Remember, this is my own honest account of chemotherapy experience. “Those were tough,” she recalls. HER2-positivebreast cancer 3. If only they could step in my moms body for 10 minutes. I can tell you now that 6 months after chemo finished, I feel like a different person and so so much better. I was just a kid when my mom was going through chemotherapy and couldn’t fully grasp how much of a toll it took on her physically, mentally, and emotionally. On Day 4 my body starts aching and my neck is stiff, making sleep uncomfortable. Chemotherapy can affect your ability to have children, whether you're a man or woman. I agree with eating ice or something cold before, during, and after the red devil infusion. x, This made me cry. All is not right with the world. In fact, each day since I’ve felt better in every way and my family and friends have really rallied round. It’s not a horror story, it’s your experience and as you say, it is different for everyone. My first treatment took five and a half hours. I also ended up with an infected finger from a small scratch, which I required antibiotics for, just so much fun. Thank you so much Emma, that is just such a lovely thing to say :) ‘Deb’ is amazing, I wish she could be my cheerleader every day :) x, I have been quietly following your journey and can’t tell you how strong I think you’re being. I did the cold cap. x x, Hang in there Mim. I wish I knew what to say, I wish I could convey properly how brave you are for sharing such a harrowing experience but I don’t have enough words. I’m thankful that my family is already complete. Cancer has come back.. At the end of the session I felt the cold cap not quite in contact with my scalp at the top and told Mr M I thought it wouldn’t work well this time round. Oh gosh I can’t imagine what it’s like or what you’re going through. Some say the first and second are the worst. X, Oh thank you thank you lovely Katie!! Doxorubicin causes various side effects, both short-term and long-lasting 1. That all aside though, my first chemo treatment has been nothing like as terrifying and unbearable as I thought it would be. They worry because I got a bit of anemia going on. There is absolutely no guarantee that anyone else will experience things in the same way. Does chemotherapy hurt? It’s one of the annoying risks of chemotherapy. My thoughts are with you Mim. Two to go…keep that in your mind xxx Lots of luck xx #twinklytuesday, Oh I bet they loved you there :) Thank you lady x x, Dear sweet Mim, there are no words but know we are all rooting for you. If I just stop now, I’ll start getting better again instead of worse. It makes eating even harder but at least the pain is gone. x #twinklytuesday, Thank you so so much Claire, what you have said is more than enough and it means such a lot x, Honestly – I don’t really know what to say, but I always read your updates and I didn’t want to read & run again. Did it inspire you to become a doctor? Thanks gain for sharing. Thank you Christina and I hope you’re feeling well. I stumbled across you blog in a search for info. A very honest account of what you are going through. Our mutual friend, Jill C., has kept me informed of your journey. I've had no pain from the Neulasta. I heard that AC or "The Red Devil" Chemo was the worst. I felt great the afternoon after treatment and the next day as well. I was suppose to have 12 but the neuropathy was bad. Even when I’m doubled over with the worst cramps of my life, I’m happy that I’ve fended off menopause for one more month at least. I’m now on an accidental diet during chemotherapy. Reading this really upset and touched me, it is like you were me, you wrote everything I felt and I only wish I could have put it into words as honest and eloquent as you did, maybe then the people around me would have had better understanding of how awful AC really is. 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